The thrill....

I was listening to a Beth Moore teaching on CD today in the car (Thank you Lynn!) and she got sort of side tracked at the end of the teaching...but it really spoke to me.

She started talking about getting a thrill from reading God's word. Having the words just jump right off the page at her. And amaze her somehow differently every time she reads the same passage.

I have never felt that rush before reading the Bible. I have always felt very inadequate when reading it, because I never felt like I "got" it. I could read the words, and hear the story, but never get what it meant. So lots of time....I just wouldn't read it to avoid the disappointment...not in the Bible, but in myself. I couldn't figure out why it wouldn't come to me.

Well I think I figured it out today....I was looking at it like a book I had to read. Like homework, or a summer reading list, or a textbook...something that was there to teach me something I had to know...like a rule book for being a Christian...The Christian Life for dummies...

BUT...then I could read a "fun" book and get chills from the anticipation and yearn to hear more about the characters...and then be sad when the story was over.

Here it is in a nutshell...it was my fault...I went into it expecting to be lectured not inspired...Talked down to not lifted up....scared not overjoyed....

I want to read His word and be so in awe at who He is that I have chill bumps run up and down my spine....feel the joy so strong in my soul that I can only giggle and grin....feel the desire so strong to read more that I take my bible with me everywhere, not just leave it in the car all week until we go to church again.


AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT THIS STUDY IS DOING FOR ME!!!! Every night before I start to read, I pray to God to show me more, invite me in and bring me closer to Him through His Word. And every night...He does!!!

I am still amazed that He has the patience He does with me...He continues to show His grace and mercy on me even though I don't even deserve it!!

I stand in awe....
Libby